I have served my family foods from my freezer whose age I knew to be older than 3 years. I have gone literally months without spending $100 in groceries. I used what was in the cabinet; prayed over what was left in the freezer and scavenged and scrounged (still using leftover condiments from last years Track Team Picnic).
The kids were scholarshipped for Track. Our adoption was a
I questioned God a lot.
"What are You doing?"
"You said..." to move here
"I know I can't handle anymore." the girls got hurt
"Now, I can't handle one more thing." traveling to get your child is supposed to be fun
"Nothing else. Please." the surgery is long past due
"I have no strength left. I will not survive." where will the next blow come from
"I'm done." it's never been just about the money; it was also the discouragement
Indeed, it was for my own welfare
that I had such great bitterness;
but Your love has delivered me
from the Pit of destruction,
for You have thrown all my sins behind Your back. Is. 38:17
Look, I am about to do something new;
even now it is coming. Do you not see it?
Indeed, I will make a way in the wilderness,
rivers in the desert. Is. 43:17
And the rivers flow.
When we would talk about just needing to survive, there was always a good Christian brother or sister there to say, "Riches can be just as much of a trial." I wasn't asking for riches. I wanted to put a ham hock in the beans.
We aren't about to be rich. We are about to have enough. It makes me realize, I have "gotten by" for so long, I have forgotten how to plan ahead. I need to hone my skills.
To glorify the One Who Sees.